posted by jenni on January 4th, 2015 at 1:33PM

It is messed up that many people have developed self-deprecating behaviors to conform to some pretty inhumane standards, as opposed to dealing with unmet needs, desires or traumas and progressing as a world filled with healthy, compassionate individuals (which, imho, would solve many of the worlds problems).

I suppose some choose to ignore reality and create their own narrative by normalizing unhealthy behaviors or abuse as a part of life. I often ask people what they think is the reason that some folks choose not to deal with their problems or strive for healthier alternatives to their current lifestyle choices and most of the answers are too sad to even repeat. Which is an answer in itself.

Perhaps Mr. Curtis was trapped in a traumatized loop that kept being filled and enlarged with more trauma/self-hate and he became incapable of ever seeing/having hope for a way out, consciously or subconsciously. Although I would like to hope that our subconscious has survival as a primary desire/innate need and seeks to achieve that with healthy means and something (trauma, illusions, etc) in our conscious minds prevents/blocks some from achieving those goals. Or would trauma be rooted in the subconscious and everything that becomes the self grows from there...thoughts to ponder for the day.

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