mf - story #5711 - At present, I do not

posted by Nylorac on December 16th, 2010 at 8:16PM

At present, I do not. I spoke with my therapist, and she is concerned and has me on suicide watch.

Regarding our humanly chemical natures, I agree. However, I abhor the prospect of surviving off of opiates or equivalents to sustain a reasonable level of indifference towards living. That seems .. meaningless.

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posted by dennisn on December 16th, 2010 at 8:22PM

Well, opiates may very well contribute to it, during the "lows" / withdrawal periods. Perhaps moving to California might help? (For example, suicide is quite a bit more common in Alaska than in California. And quite a bit more rare still in Brazil.)

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posted by Nylorac on December 16th, 2010 at 8:28PM

...the thing is, I didn't ask for this life. I feel no obligation to continue living it.

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posted by Nylorac on December 16th, 2010 at 8:27PM

Since I don't use at all, I experience no withdrawal periods.

I *could* move to compare how I react... However, I would still have to deal with the meaninglessness of life. I need to live with myself, and I can't rationally do that.

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posted by dennisn on December 16th, 2010 at 8:33PM

As moi said, everything is meaningless. I actually came to this realization last December too, and it was ... quite frightening.

"Rationality" is also very subjective -- all it really is, is your consistency to follow your core beliefs. So, if you define "survival" as a core belief, it follows that living is rational.

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posted by Dumb nigger on August 3rd, 2023 at 3:17AM

Yeah. That’s why I say this - kill yourself. Both of you are unwanted and pathetic. I hate you.

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posted by moi on December 16th, 2010 at 8:20PM

I think the first thing to come to terms with, is that everything is meaningless.

Than the rest becomes a choice.

If you analyse yourself, how much percent of you wants to die ?

Is it fixed, does it fluctuate alot ?

how long has it been constant ?

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