Typing this again, last attempt got fucked somehow :(
As I had mentioned, going through anger/trauma support groups and that subReddit about abusive parents made me miss you. I hate how everyone pretends to not get it. How everyone twists the plain truth. You didn’t have that flaw. That annoying, crazy flaw. My OCD gets triggered and I’m compelled to pointlessly fix them and their lies. The real life humans don’t act human. It hurts man.
I’ll see you in Canada sometime. Idk where my life is taking me lol. Thinking about the immediate future terrifies me. So much to do and figure out. Your perviness and lack of interest in me fades into the background compared to your sanity and logic. I didn’t have to be on edge with your sanity….except for what you did lately. Mixing with shitty people with no soul. How could you accept their food when they kicked you out in the cold?
Anyway shit I hate typing again.
It’s too bad I crave sane company. I don’t need someone. But I crave good people to be a human with. I’d love to be with someone like me, somebody who gives me reality checks, offers me their authenticity and sanity, and grounds me.
Why aren’t you trying to find a sane person to marry?
I’d still love to be happy with some moral, healthy guy.
I’d love a lot of things. I can do without a lot of luxury. But with uncompensated shallow social life, I die inside a little bit. M so sleepy that I hear my dad’s cringe voice yelling in my head. Sigh, biology and mortality. I’ll sleep I hope you stay sane. Motherfucker exploiting my need for truth. Excuse me
As I had mentioned, going through anger/trauma support groups and that subReddit about abusive parents made me miss you. I hate how everyone pretends to not get it. How everyone twists the plain truth. You didn’t have that flaw. That annoying, crazy flaw. My OCD gets triggered and I’m compelled to pointlessly fix them and their lies. The real life humans don’t act human. It hurts man.
I’ll see you in Canada sometime. Idk where my life is taking me lol. Thinking about the immediate future terrifies me. So much to do and figure out. Your perviness and lack of interest in me fades into the background compared to your sanity and logic. I didn’t have to be on edge with your sanity….except for what you did lately. Mixing with shitty people with no soul. How could you accept their food when they kicked you out in the cold?
Anyway shit I hate typing again.
It’s too bad I crave sane company. I don’t need someone. But I crave good people to be a human with. I’d love to be with someone like me, somebody who gives me reality checks, offers me their authenticity and sanity, and grounds me.
Why aren’t you trying to find a sane person to marry?
I’d still love to be happy with some moral, healthy guy.
I’d love a lot of things. I can do without a lot of luxury. But with uncompensated shallow social life, I die inside a little bit. M so sleepy that I hear my dad’s cringe voice yelling in my head. Sigh, biology and mortality. I’ll sleep I hope you stay sane. Motherfucker exploiting my need for truth. Excuse me
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posted by dennisn on October 15th, 2022 at 6:25PM
> I didn’t have to be on edge with your sanity ... except for what you did lately. Mixing with shitty people with no soul. How could you accept their food when they kicked you out in the cold?
1) My main reason to go was to confront the 3 of them. 2) They did provide food :-). Food is good. 3) They weren't so bad. (Obviously they're unacceptable though.) > Why aren’t you trying to find a sane person to marry? I found you :). My previous slightly more effortful searches (on okcupid) failed. I still can't get over their INCOME SLIDER ... you can filter partners based on their income :D. (This is obviously a "feature" for the ladies :P. Clown world.) > I hope you stay sane. I will :D |
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posted by Riyaffs on October 15th, 2022 at 6:12PM
The past is forever. So why can’t we be together forever? I have no friends. I hoped you would be it. The one who wants sanity today and tomorrow and everyday. But with me. To come home to. I now hear a loud commercial voice in my head when my eyes shut lol this is my time to bow out. Leave the building. End the song. Pull the dildo out of you.
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