God help me
posted by Riyaffs on October 11th, 2022 at 9:51AM
posted by Riyaffs on October 11th, 2022 at 9:51AM
The clock is ticking and my body’s withering. And for some reason, somebody had to keep track of how long I’ve been here. I mean it’s fine, it’s just a scary reminder of the fucking death threat that comes around every year.
I’m alone and scared and shit fuck I hate it here so much. How short is life, Dennis. But you’re busy spending it with your shitty family. I wish I was with Kashish. She’s gonna video call me at 12 and I just know I’m gonna break the fuck down because video calls are a compromise for the person’s actual presence. It’s gonna remind me how she’s not really there. Everyone’s there but not there.
But guess who’ll be there? My (remorseless) abusers. They wanna take me to dinner tomorrow. I’d rather fucking give up a year from my lifespan than have a fucking birthday dinner with them. Being with them makes me feel lonelier than I did when I was alone.
Haha hey oh shit. What have they done to me? Kashish and that guy Avtarit were telling me they always wanna disappear and go away from their (shitty, evil) friends and fam on their birthdays and I was like woah not relatable at all. Perhaps I was too hasty in my judgement. I wanna take myself out tomorrow and stay out the whole day. I’ll work outside at some cafe idc. But it’s not about the fucking day, it’s about my fucking life. Whatever remains of it. I DONT DESERVE TO GOOOOOOOO
Fucking shit. I hate your stupid fucking evil family. I could gas them and mine in a chamber if I could. Imagine being given a fucking LIFESPAN and also a bunch of insane fucks to deal with. I mean sorry I thought I was doomed already when I was born?
I’m alone and scared and shit fuck I hate it here so much. How short is life, Dennis. But you’re busy spending it with your shitty family. I wish I was with Kashish. She’s gonna video call me at 12 and I just know I’m gonna break the fuck down because video calls are a compromise for the person’s actual presence. It’s gonna remind me how she’s not really there. Everyone’s there but not there.
But guess who’ll be there? My (remorseless) abusers. They wanna take me to dinner tomorrow. I’d rather fucking give up a year from my lifespan than have a fucking birthday dinner with them. Being with them makes me feel lonelier than I did when I was alone.
Haha hey oh shit. What have they done to me? Kashish and that guy Avtarit were telling me they always wanna disappear and go away from their (shitty, evil) friends and fam on their birthdays and I was like woah not relatable at all. Perhaps I was too hasty in my judgement. I wanna take myself out tomorrow and stay out the whole day. I’ll work outside at some cafe idc. But it’s not about the fucking day, it’s about my fucking life. Whatever remains of it. I DONT DESERVE TO GOOOOOOOO
Fucking shit. I hate your stupid fucking evil family. I could gas them and mine in a chamber if I could. Imagine being given a fucking LIFESPAN and also a bunch of insane fucks to deal with. I mean sorry I thought I was doomed already when I was born?
